Mini Miracles

I hate hormones. They invade your life and screw with it just for the hell of it. I'm usually really good around the time when they start to creep up on me, at least I think i'm pretty good. Maybe we should ask my husband because I feel like he would have a very different answer ;) Today I found myself extremely emotional and I honestly wasn't expecting it. I seem to go from happy to extremely frustrated in the blink of an eye and to be honest, it's exhausting. Like for example, today I was looking up apartments to rent for Cam and I, and I found some that looked very promising; specious and enough bedrooms to house the little one we hope will come soon. I was so excited that I found something that not only fit our budget but actually looked nice as well. But then I called to see when we could come and see the apartment. Now here lies the problem: Cam works on weekends. I have a regular "9-5" job but Cam is in car sales, so he works odd hours and that includ...

So I was reading an article last night about the dreaded two week wait when going through fertility treatments. This is the point in the process where you have ovulated and are just waiting to see if you are in fact pregnant. I hate this time period. I went through it right after Christmas when I was positive I was pregnant (but in fact I wasn't) and it is the longest 14 days ever. For someone who has zero patience most of the time, these 14 days seem like they go on forever. The article went on about what you should do to help your body along; eating healthy, exercising and trying not to stress yourself out too much. All of these things I am doing on a daily basis anyway, but what it also said was have a positive attitude. They said to imagine yourself pregnant during these 2 weeks and it will somehow help. I am a little skeptical of this, for many reasons. But the main reason why I don't like this idea is the letdown. If I do in fact tell myself I'm pregnant and then f...

I have debated for weeks whether or not I wanted to make this blog. I have blogged before, but never about something so personal, and so close to me. I want to preface this by saying that yes, I know I am young and yes, I know what is happening to me has happened to many other woman around the world. But to me, this experience has changed me and is something that hurts so bad sometimes that I wonder if what I want will ever happen. But by talking about what I am going through I hope to help at least one other person know that they are not alone. I have wanted to be a mother since, well since forever. There was never a time in my life where I didn't see myself with at least one kid, so when I met my husband Cam and we began to plan our life together, naturally I thought that future would involves children, many I hoped. What I didn't bargain for was the speed bump I am on right now. Cam and I have been married for almost 2 years, together for 6 and so a year after we got m...