Mini Miracles

It's days like today that makes me want to quit sometimes. I am overwhelmed with appointments, bloodwork and ultrasounds. I feel like I don't have a life anymore because all I do is get tests done and wait for the green light when I finally ovulate. I am frustrated and cranky and I know I am driving those around me nuts, but I am having more bad days then good days right now. Its like, every time I go to the clinic its bad news. These last few days have been the cherry on the proverbial shit cake, I have been on Clomid, a medication designed to help me ovulate, because apparently my body doesn't want to do this on its own. I have been taking it for 3 cycles now, I am on my 4th as of today. I am supposed to take 2 pills a night for 5 nights and then after a few days it should begin to work. So this time I thought it would work the same as the other months....but no. It has to go and stop working. This was a nail in my coffin so to speak. I have been worried that my body wo

Going through fertility treatments is difficult, not only on your body on your mind as well. And there are some things that you just shouldn't say to someone who is struggling to get pregnant. Since Cam and I have been trying for a while now, people have a need to comment on our struggle, which is totally fine with me. I love the support and knowing people are rooting for us makes this process a lot easier in some ways. But there are two phrases in particular that drive me up the wall; "stay positive," and "it will happen when you stop thinking about it so much." Now, I know that people don't mean to say these things to piss me off, but most of the time it does. Even last night when I had a breakdown moment where everything just seemed like shit, Cam told me to stay positive, even though he knows that I hate it. In that moment it made me laugh because he is my husband and he has seen all the medications, all the shots and been to all the appointments with