Does it get any easier?
I find myself wondering if this ever gets any easier. Will I always feel a pit in my stomach seeing someone I know announce they're pregnant? Will I always have this irrational fear that someone I'm close with will get pregnant before me? I hate that feeling. I think many women who go through fertility treatments for an extended period of time will attest to this. That feeling of utter jealousy is not an emotion I ever want to feel towards someone I know. It's an emotion that causes other emotions to gain access to my brain, like anger, sadness, and envy. I hate all of those emotions when it comes to seeing pregnancy announcements because I am so happy for them, I love that they are able to grow their family and bring a child into this world. I just wish it would happen to me. I've been told to stay off social media, "just don't pay attention to it," but in reality, it's everywhere. You don't notice all the subtle things you see during the day